A Void

What we do in life echoes in eternity. - Maximus

Does your mind starts boggling when you hear people talk about spirituality. Muslims going to the mosque standing together, bowing down, chanting while rolling beads in their hands; Christians preparing for their Sunday mass; Hindus standing humbly with hands clasped closely to their chest in utmost attention, all seeking God’s blessing. Why people are so attached with the concept of heaven and hell? People meditating calmly and quietly, it feels like they have finally reached nirvana. Do you really understand spirituality, soul and the need to seek blessing. What exactly a person is looking for? What is the core idea of customs, cultures, rituals and religions?

Why on a Saturday night we want to forget about the exhausting week and just drown ourselves in a mode of laughter and happiness. Even the hardship you have done during the week is for what reason? Why we want to sleep so deep by the time we wake up, it should feel like ages have gone by. Why do we plan a trip to a hill station, to party on a beach, or even a walk on a lonely road? In my last article I discussed about emotions, however if you observe closely, what void are we trying to fill? What is that one thing which all our energy and emotions are trying to achieve? Subconsciously or by determination, why we do what we do?

Meditation is like the relativity equation e=mc^2, you know there is something extraordinary but going into the depth and deciphering it, is like solving Da Vinci’s code. Peace is like a shining star in a dark night, where it sparkles alone, elucidating the atmosphere. You cannot really catch that star or look into its deep mysticism but you can’t stay away from acknowledging the beauty and the aura it creates in your mind.

How do we differentiate things which give us temporary high rather than an effect which is eternally soothing? Looking far away from zenith, beyond perception, a state where you will be in bliss and not just happiness. Or happiness itself is just a perception. An internal craving: A motivator in living a life, a driving force for all our actions. Don’t we all are doing a jihad to find that hope, a place, a moment, a state of intoxication and ecstasy, just being captivated in delight.

What we do? Watch a movie, a game of football, a trip to Bangkok, an evening in a disc? But all this energy and emotions thriving to feed an internal craving creates only a mode of temporary exultation. Some are happy in the things they do while others do things to be happy.

Even a God fearing person lying with his head down, tears rolling down from the corner of his closed eyes, praying for that Promised land which is a bliss, an eternal salvation, trying to achieve nirvana. In need of sympathy for all the tribulation he has been through in this life, the loss of a loved one, all the pain and misery. Giving charity to a person who in his perception is less pathetic than he is. Awaiting to be in the Promised Land, a hope to hang on. A gift for all the ‘good’ works that he did; ‘bliss’- reciprocation for all his suffering in this world. People take one of these interpretations according to how they have spent their lives. 

 A ‘serial killer’ who is in search for his next victim with an unfulfilled passion, a desire to be fulfilled. The thirst for an ecstasy, devotion in performing an art. Keeping a part of the art; a collection of trophy, a living memoir. Bringing a meaning to his life or trying to live this life. The bizarre yearning and an uncommon motivation to achieve something with his existence. Is it a deep call from heart, a psychological satisfaction or it’s just another way to quench thirst in someone else’s suffering like a black humor?

The problem might not lie in this world but the methods to achieve that feeling of completeness. The result can be disastrous when your mind and your ego try to fill a void.